28/9

i not sure how i really fell , i know i am tired of acting
what to do .. we are just follow the demand of the society
the one who don;t like to speak , the one who don dare to do
will eventually eliminated by the others who speaks and act
i know everyone is good in acting
everyone have their mask on their face , but what to do this is the society
the one who is weak will u eventually being eaten by the one who are strong
this is the world that the weakling will not survive ,
this is the world that the humankind will be stressing to hide them self
so they won't be betray or eliminated by the other
i am quiet , because i am really tired to continue acting
when i am weak i act i am strong
i never scold ppl directly because i normally scold ppl in scars-tic way
the world will not show the opportunity directly infront your eye
you need to use your heart to feel it
everyone is demanding for the better life
who don wanna be the best or enjoy the life to maximum,
but what is the maximum of enjoyment ???
when u reach to the top u will eventually fall back to the ground
this is life that cannt be argue by anyone
am i self-fish
am i a good keeper for screat ?
i dono i dono who i am and what i am
but i know i am just who i am , this is the things i know
if i can't do it now , what is the things that i actually talk about future
what i really thinking is not others thinking this make me special than others
but then sometimes the more special u are the more suffer for u to join in crowd
because u don understand what others actually want and what you really want
as the time being the will is burning thru the every single nerve of my brain
i am not sad nor happy
i am just have the emotional anymore
because i am not who i really are? or i am the one who already being modify
but this is what i want right ??
i have no define group , because i have no define my own thinking
this make me just a person who dont dare to sound out
this is me this is me
let the time beings please reveal my answer to me ...
i just wana be a person who be able to join in anyone and needed by everyone ...

18/5

Sometime we better don suspect our own instinct ..
i knew that is going to happen..
but then i doubt because i thought that the person is different..
So conclusion ,
nothings is happening as usual
thx to the day
i love it so much ,
i am the worst case isn't it ,
or maybe some mental problem
it prove that we shoudn't trust anyone ,
no matter family friends or anyone ,
no one will really care,
i always knew ,
thx for the day beings
although i knew that person go thru the process
of feeling bad,
but still we still know the conclusion ~
thx for days and let it beings~

不知道为什么，
感觉上自己好想开始远离了过去的原则。。
哈哈，是想开了吗？
但是如果想开了不是应该开心吗？
为什么陪伴我的就只有不舍，
是还没准备？
呆呆的思想，哈哈==
也许自己就是被迷茫在自己的笑声中，
看着其他人的背影我会羡慕，会妒忌，
难道这就是我要的？
难道，永远就是只能是我帮人，而没有人帮我？
开始觉得人都很假，
为什么？
好事就想要传千里，坏事就希望永不被发掘。。。
人啊人。。。
开始发现人其实不像自己想像那么美好。。
我也许不明白所有事物的定义是什么，但我就是不爽--
==思想就是混乱的结晶。。
想了想，还是想了不想而再想。。
笑话人生吧~~

<全中华5>

哈哈，今天才开始写关于那里的事情~
从何开始说起呢？
或许一切都是注定的~
那里我认识了许多的朋友~
而且让我发现自己不完善的地方~

现在想起来~
大家一起唱歌，一起跳舞，
内心还是感到欣慰
因为，茫茫幕幕的我走完了
小学与中学的生涯，
我想我不想在自己最后的大学生涯也留下了遗憾

全中华5，
让我看到了许多华人 对自己的期望，
和不断的付出，好比梦境一样~
虽然，我不时忘记队员的名字，
但我相信我能记住他们的脸孔~

全中华5可以算是我最后在中学中留下的句点吧~
我相信我一定能够调色出不同的颜色~

一个字，一句话，一首歌，甚至一篇文章，依然无法表达我的思念~
但愿，每个人都能够体验~不同的心愿~往前开拓起自己的未来~